Big lippin'

This weekend I had an interesting experience. After eating at five guys Saturday night my bottom lip began to swell and naturally, I began to FREAK OUT. Like who wouldn't if they saw their bottom lip basically swallow their top lip. Oh the struggle. Well after church on Sunday I found myself in an urgent care being treated for some sort of allergic reaction. I don't even know what to but it's been such an embarrassing struggle. I never thought it would be difficult to eat cereal (besides when I had my tonsils out). I felt like such an awkward idiot when I would talk to anyone. I knew they noticed how bad it looked. My sweet boyfriend tried to reassure me everything was fine but I still felt like it was terrible. And after he and some friends made Punny lip jokes and compared me to the monster off monsters inc who gets his lips stuck in a vaccuum,

 I was insanely positive I couldn't be seen by anyone. But luckily I was blessed with an amazing boyfriend that told me countless times that no matter what he thought I was beautiful. But enough of my sappy-ness. Enjoy the picture of me with a swollen lip. Not to mention it's still pretty swollen on Tuesday... The struggle is real

When you know, you know.

Have you ever been so sure of something you thought you were going to explode if someone didn't agree with you?! Nothing is more difficult then trying to persuade someone to believe the way you should! But why have to? Shouldn't it all just smoothly go together? Nope. That isn't life. You have to work for what you want. Nothing comes easy if it's worth it. Sometimes it's hard because it requires things that you lack. Like patience, money, time, or strength. Thankfully I was raised to always know to put my trust and my faith in The Lord. It may have taken almost 20 years for me to actually do it, but I did it. Never allow the promptings from Heavenly Father slip away. If you feel it, do it. Don't wait for the right moment. Now all people have to do, once they know what to do, is do all they can to make it happen. Once you have done all you can do, trust that The Lord will bring you through the rest. The struggle is so real sometimes but as long as you believe that Heavenly Father is never going to let you fail, it will make everything easier. 

Reality may just be better...

So I'm laying here at almost 3 am and I can't sleep. Ever had those nights where you have so many thoughts in your head that nothing can drown them out? Welcome to the struggle of my night. There are so many loose ends in my life that I feel like I'm just waiting around to finally get an answer to. On the other hand, I feel happier than I've ever felt in my life. Is it possible to be kept awake because you're just too happy to sleep? I just am amazed that my life could really be so wonderful right now. Things are simple and surprisingly that makes me intensely happy. I feel like I've always been trying to make things difficult but this time it feels easy and perfect. Part of me is terrified that all this will end so fast but I'm mostly just too happy to even care. Luckily for me the night before I have to be up early, I can't sleep. Oh the struggle. But there's no way i would change anything about my life. (I never thought I'd ever say or think that!!)