Well Cared For

It is always hard trying to explain everything that is going on in your head and your heart. Well, for me it is at least. That has always been one of my weak points; finding all the right words to really explain my thoughts and feelings. Most of the time I just can't seem to hit the right spot. With decisions coming up in my life I keep getting asked that same question, "How do you feel?" That's probably the hardest question for me to answer because of who I am. I am the person that wants to make sure that everyone is happy so if explaining my feelings could make someone hurt or upset, I just get all confused on my answer. SO if that question would be asked to me right now my answer would be well cared for. Being home to see your family is one thing. You always know that no matter what your family will be there for you. That is the best thing about North Carolina for me. I feel so taken care of not only by family BUT also amazing friends. I can feel their love for me and their desire to return to be here with them. No matter what roads i've taken or how fast I come home, they are always here ready to receive me back. Isn't that exactly how our Father in Heaven feels? He wants to take care of us and help us return to him no matter how long it will take. How great it is to know that Heavenly Father knows me, my desires, and my intentions. I feel as if all along I knew that no matter what happens everything will be okay and I will be well cared for. It may not have always seemed that way due to my psychotic need to take control of situations and impatience for always wanting something to happen as soon as I know that is exactly what I want. Over the next couple months it will be my goal to avoid those two feelings. I hope that my answer for how I feel is always well cared for rather than frustrated because something that I want is not happening as fast as I would like it to. A big part of these past few months has been faith. Faith to know that  no matter what I decide, everything will be okay. Faith to know that I will receive an answer to my questions. Faith to know that that answer will lead me down where I need to go and not always where I thought I would be. Carlos A. Godoy said in the October General Conference, "The best paths in life are rarely the easiest". So over the next few months when the times may be hard and the struggle is real, I hope to remember that quote and go with faith knowing that Heavenly Father will always keep me well cared for.